final exam monotony

So i got the schedule for semester number two. Smooth sailing I tell you. Smooth sailing. I have a grand total of four classes...half of which are clinical. So for the majority of the week I will be practicing my enema giving skills. Still wanna shake my hand?

I need someone to practice on. Any takers?

Just as a random side note: getting along with the people you live with makes life worth the living. The only sad part about actually getting along is that it makes leaving that much harder. You know?

Sigh of relief. Mom is happy. Almost too happy. Kidding. She's very excited about shopping for clothing apparel over Christmas. It's a happy time. Ever since Grandma put her hearing aid back in things have become even easier. She's excited to meet Vince and is trying desperately to cram as much quilting tutelage in over Christmas break as possible. "Life skills, dear. It's all about life skills. I'm sure this Vincent character wouldn't want to marry a woman who can't even make a decent quilt to spruce up your...living quarters".

Living quarters? It's hard for Grandma to admit that i'm going to be moving in with a man...etc, etc. I'm watching out for Amanda with all of this. Mental pictures.
And life isn't just about quilting. It's about knitting and quilting. Don't laugh. I'm sure someone out there finds knitting sexy.

It's nice to keep you guys in touch with the madness.

41 days until I get to see my posse again!!!

I'm so excited, and I just can't fight it.

I'm about to lose control and I think I like it.

Everyday the possibility of elopement seems moore plausible. Colours, dresses, flowers, dates, halls, invites...it's a crazy time. And it will be for awhile. The good news is, I have many girl friends that are much more organized than I and they know what's taboo and what isn't taboo. Thank goodness.

Everyday things start seeming less and less sureal. I can't wait for august to come around. And I can't wait to fight with Vincent like an old married couple. That would be fun.

Hey, Lauren, Krysta and muffin. Thank you so much for always guiding Vince in the right direction concerning his shopping endeavours. It's a security issue. Hahah.

I can't say I've got this any more planned out than I did a week ago. But there is some good news. I have decided that I am not (under any circumstances) wearing a dress that either myself or Vince can trip over and destroy. IT just isn't an option.

And I am very excited. I just had to say that. Especially since I am all alone in the world of TBay and utterly out of touch. Oh Thunder Bay.

On a random side note: I found a place to live in Thunder Bay until April. I see things looking up in the near future. And I also sense some cooking classes coming up. Oh no. I hear the stove at Chantalle's house is demon-possessed. Pray for me.

I love you guys!

A New Chapter

Life. It can change in the matter of seconds. One last, desperate, love-filled email sent. A final attempt at salvaging a love you can't handle losing. A plane trip out to Thunder Bay. The ultimate gesture. The ultimate question.

It all changes in the matter of seconds, even though God had it in the works for thousands of years.

I give myself one week. Then reality will kick in. Things will not seem so sureal. And I will realize...

I am going to be spending the rest of my life with someone who:
a) not only knows what WOW stands for...but subscribes to it--monthly.
b) can make a wookie noise for absolutely every emotion known to man: love, hate, fear, sadness, confusion...
c) will inadvertantly mould me into a pastor's wife...
...okay, not so inadvertently. I was warned.
d) plays D&D
e) plays Axis and Allies (did I spell that right?)
f) uses the public washroom facilities in guys' dorm when I am in there!
g) has really big eyes
h) makes me laugh

I know this. I admit all of this. And I honestly could not be any happier.
Lauren, Krysta, Amanda...you were all right. I've spent the last few months in denial.

You know what the best part was? I called Dad to tell him...all I had to say was, "Dad I have something to tell you," and he was already asking for a date so he could book time off of work. Apparently he saw this coming for a lot longer than anyone else did. And apparently he really really really loves Vincent.

I have never been so excited in my entire life. I can't even sleep. I just wish a couple of you concordia folk were down here so I could give you all big hugs and jump up and down...boo urns.
January 12th! Krysta knows what that means...

Two More Days...

Laugh so hard you snort.
Make a fool of yourself.
Feels so good
To fall so hard
Your limbs shatter
The only thing intact is your heart.
Surprise, surprise
You
Thought it was broken
There's always gonna be someone
To pick up the pieces
But in the meantime
Something is left behind.
A gesture, a laugh, a phrase, a smile.
You forget
Until it comes back
And you weep to compensate
For how full you become
There is no room left
For what was loved and lost
Never to return again
The tears flow and flow

and flow

Until finally you feel like you can
move again
talk again
And you remember why you wept
'Cause those gestures
those laughs
that phrase
that smile...

It never
really
left.

--Anonymous

Edmonton

I really don't know what to say. A lot of things have come into play lately (as they do in the lives of most).

And I have come to one startling realization that I have been trying to repress for what seems like ages: my family is very important to me...but my heart is in Edmonton.

So, what now?

A series of more decisions and realizations and accomodations. Yes. A lot of 'i-o-n's. Ions! YEs. I just inadvertently related my life to a chemical bond...but a very strong one at that.

Hmmm...sounds like everyone at Concordia is just a leeeeeeeeeetle burned out. My advice: drink more coffee and make more random noises.

If in doubt, just ask Amanda about the funny noises thing.

The Bunny Suicides

Life

It's time for the rant session you all have been waiting for.

A lot of stuff has been brought up into the open and a lot of pre-existing beliefs have been confirmed. As the result, someone has gone outside of the 'circle of trust', but I think that I know what I have to do. The hardest part is just doing it. I'm trying to make sure that this choice is for me and not somebody else. Thank goodness I have almost a year to follow through with it.

Oh life.